Final Part 4
While answering Edgardo’s question – how does a missionary
know where to go? – a deeper one arose, which was, how does someone know they
are called? Many pastors and
theologians will tell you – “You’ll know.”
But I have learned that this answer is not adequate for most people so
let me share with you my story of answering the call and perhaps it will help
you.
Several years ago, I had this deep gut feeling that God
wanted me to do something. I could
never get away from thinking about it no matter what I did, where I went or who
I was with. That nagging thought never
left my mind. I knew deep down that
what I was feeling was not indigestion, and I didn’t need a doctor. I knew from the core of my being that God
was telling me something, and if you want the truth I really knew what He was
communicating to me, but I just didn’t want to admit it - - - OUT LOUD! You
see if you admit something like that to the whole world you get different
responses from those around you and most of them aren't exactly positive.
Some of those responses might be from:
1) People who don’t
know Jesus as their personal Savior and have very little understanding of
spiritual things will automatically think you to be crazy saying such amazing things like “God called me to. . .”
2) People who do know
Jesus and are actively living out their faith sometimes surprisingly will respond like this: “Why
Lord? I don’t want to lose my son –
daughter – husband – brother – cousin – friend - _______.”
3) People who do know
Jesus but don’t really live like it will respond like this: “That’s
nice. You are going to get a real job
right?”
4) People who have answered the call and feel quite beat up and used will respond: "Oh, I am so sorry. I'll pray for you."
5) But there are some who will say: "Great, I will guard you in my prayers every day and anxiously wait to hear the good news about how God is using you." (BTW: Make sure these people's contact information is safely stored in your contact list. Just trust me on this.)
As well, if you admit something like that out loud for all
the world to hear then you know that at that point you have to really do something about it
or the whole Christian world will see you for what you really are – frightened, confused, worried, and helpless. So more often than not the one with those
feelings will do just what I did.
Internalize them. Keep them
hidden. Get a little bit angry with the
world. Avoid church and church friends
or go the other way and become clingy and never absent from church. But however you handle the feelings the
problem persists. The problem
grows. It does not go away. For me it got to the point where I couldn't
sleep at night. I couldn't eat. I was rather grumpy and gloomy. But still I thought to myself that maybe I have my feelings wrong. So you think maybe if I go to some religious authority then they will tell me that I have it
all wrong and that I really do have bad case of indigestion, and if you take some antacid
pills and read a Psalm or two then the feelings will go away. And that is just what I did. I called a friend of mine and our church’s
minister of education – Keith Smyser (a great American and a heck of a baseball player) and made an appointment to take him to
lunch in order to talk about some things.
And when we sat down at the BBQ restaurant and chatted a little bit, I
finally found the courage to ask him outright, “How do you know if you are called to the
ministry?” Keith laughed and said, “Is
that all you wanted to know. I thought
it was something like you and Debbie were having problems.” He then said, “You are called Steve. I have known it for a long time. I’m glad you are finally doing something
about it.” And that was it, I suppose in that BBQ restaurant with Keith I announced it to the
world. “God has called me to do
something.”
And the thing is.
Once you have answered the call of Jesus then you get started. You begin preparing yourself and making
yourself available for opportunities and unless you absolutely can't then you never say no. God will direct your paths. He will open the doors. He will make it work out right. If you are reading this you may be thinking, "but I want more. I want specifics." Just hang tight. I'll get to that.
Over the years there have been many people who have asked me
the very same question that I asked my dear friend Keith. And here is how I almost always answer them. “You are called. If you have ever said, ‘Yes, Jesus I will
follow you.’ If you have ever listened
to a sermon, read your Bible or gone to Sunday school then you are called to do
something.” In Mark 2:14, Jesus asked
Levi to ‘follow Him.’ And in every verse you read, and in every sermon you hear: He is asking
you to do that as well.” What does
FOLLOWING JESUS mean? It means living
by the principles that He taught. It
means serving others. It means giving
your tithes and offerings. It means
loving those that hate you. It means
going somewhere to share what Jesus did for you with others. It means encouraging them to also make their
walk with Christ real. It means doing
the right thing even though the right thing is costly, difficult and hard. It means relinquishing your wants and
desires to Christ, and loving Him so much that His wants and desires become
yours. When you do all that then my bet is that you will start feeling more
and more the best place for you to be and with whom you need to share and what you should do.
But still some people feel they need to know even more specifically than what I just shared. Some people feel that they need something
like a billboard experience before they will serve. (A billboard experience is something so incredible and profound that you know that it must be from God. For instance, driving along a road and reading a passing billboard that says: "Go to Ninevah" or something like that.) And occasionally God may provide that for
you, but more often than not it is a still small voice or feeling deep inside
that you ought to go here and do that.
Sometimes it is simply an open door versus a closed one that will guide
you. I don’t know how God works
specifically with everyone, but I do know that He does. I do know that He wants to use you. I do know that if you tell Him yes, and I will
follow you, then you ought to get a passport because you are going
somewhere. I don’t know, it may be just
across the street. But you are going
somewhere. God wants to use you. And to follow or not that is your only
response.
Some of you reading this will think "Well, I'm not qualified for this or that." And here is the response to that fear. Get qualified. Get prepared. Don't just sit there. Do something.
I was reminded of all this in a recent sermon I listened
to. And I don't remember who it was and I am just too lazy to go and figure it out, but the preacher said something along these lines, “Jacob was a cheater; Peter had a
temper; David had an affair and arranged for the murder of her husband, and Noah
got drunk. Jonah ran from God; Peter had a temper. Paul was ugly and a murderer as well; Gideon was insecure; Miriam was a gossiper, and Martha was a worrier.
Thomas was a doubter, Sara was impatient; Elijah was moody; Moses stuttered;
Zacchaeus was too short; Abraham was too old and Lazarus was dead. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies
the called!"
Go and do. . .